Opportunity

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum.

So this morning I was preparing myself went to college when I got that kind of information. Dengan pakai jeansnye, selamba badak je kan nak jumpa CEO while not wearing formal.

I was shocked for sure sampai aku confirm banyak kali ngan coursemate aku ni. Betul ke CEO nk jumpe kite? Yeke? Bio botoi? Macam dalam mimpi pun ade ni ha den ghaso. Hahaa idk why I used nogoghi punya loghat, btw.

It's a good opportunity for me to meet VVIP walaupun dari dapat berita sampailah time nak meeting tu aku balik balik tanya, "yeke CEO nak jumpe kite?" "nape kite? kite bukan senior pun" "eh nape dorg tak suruh budak lain je? yg slalu join competition ke, yg hebathebat tu?"

Hahaa giler annoyed kan aku ni. I didn't meant to be like that. I was just excited and dalam masa yang sama tak sangka diberi peluang untuk jumpa top management in our campus. Bukan semua orang dapat peluang camni.

There is something in that meeting makes me wonder. Something from Dato' Dr. Junainah which also our CEO said that, "how do you make urself discipline, have a good attitude, make urself as an active learner? dealing with the people with negative attitude? blablabla..."

And nobody can answer her. It's like everything she asked, she already answer it. Contohnya macam mana nak datang kelas on time? And the answer shud be, kena displinkan diri then baru la boleh datang awal. But tak sempat nak jawab dia sambung, macam mane nak berdisplin? (Kena ada good attitude). Macam mana nak dapat good attitude tu? (Kena semangat). Macam mane nak jadi student yang aktif? And it continues...

You know...? I mean, soalan dia in one sentence and sentence in bracket is actually some of my answer.

Eh, I don't know how to interpret it into something understandable.

But anyway, my major concern is how do I actually dealt with negative people? Hmmm... how? Still looking on it.

I kept thinking till I came to realized that, how excited I am to meet top person in my campus but when it's time to meet Allah, the excitement is nowhere. Tsk, I grieve for how bad and disgraceful I am.

Kalau nak jumpa orang penting, sebelum waktu yang dijanjikan tu dah terpacak depan office. Pakaian pun amek berat jugak. Tu belum bahasa lagi, lembut gigi dari lidah!

Ya Allah, betul sedih. Kalau time masuk waktu solat wat dek je, tangguh-tangguh. Dengar azan buat macam tak dengar. Kadang tak jawab pun azan. Doa lepas azan pun kalau teringat or kalau tak bersembang. Solat pun kadang-kadang tak kisah pun pakaian tu kotor ke tak, celah gigi ade cili ke tak. Pastu solat sekejap je, doa pulak something that I reallyreallyreally want. Takde pun ucap syukur atas apa yang Allah bagi.

Sedihnya. I want to change. I really want to change but it's not easy. That's why syurga tu indah, kerana perjuangan itu tak mudah.

I'm sharing this not to proudly show my bad attitude but this is what we should practice. I just realized that people are like that, selalu lebihkan manusia sampai kita lupa siapa sebenarnya yang menciptakan kita dan apa sebenarnya tujuan kita hidup kat dunia ni.

Mom always remind me, "dunia ni adalah jambatan untuk akhirat. Apa yang kita buat kat dunia menentukan apa yang akan kita dapat kat akhirat. The choice is in our hand. Kalau sekarang ni kita struggle untuk syurga, then Allah maha Adil, pasti Dia berikan syurga sebagai ganjaran. Tapi kalau kita hanya struggle untuk dunia semata-mata..., u fikir sendiri la."

And I'm not sharing this because I'm kind of pious. I'm not. I really am not. In fact, aku mungkin lagi teruk dari people outside. Aku cuma manusia biasa yang selalu hanyut dan aku perlukan orang yang sentiasa beri bimbingan sebab sifat manusia, mudah lupa. And I am begging for those yang baca my blog will tegur and advice me whenever I did wrong. Please....

Well I guess that all from me. Till then, see ya!